loving me.

eyes are blind. you must look with the heart.

the things most important are invisible.

july 09.

welll, as usual i've been abandoning the blogspot. um, when more things arise i shall blog. in all actuality i have a ton of things to come and spill but when i allow myself time to write/type i'll come throw up all over these parts. until then. peaceee, prosperity and paper!!!

quote.

sometimes god has to turn life upside down so you can learn to live right side up.

sunday.

i love india for this:

"i will be patient, kind, faithful and true to a man who loves music, a man who loves art, respects the spirit world and thinks with his heart"

june.

i'm craving something new; we shall see.

touch the sky.

There comes a time when you must stand alone. You must feel confident enough within yourself to follow your own dreams. You must be willing to make sacrifices. You must be capable of changing and rearranging your priorities so that your final goal can be achieved. Sometimes, familiarity and comfort need to be challenged. There are times when you must take a few extra chances and create your own realities. Be strong enough to at least try to make your life better. Be confident enough that you won't settle for a compromise just to get by. Appreciate yourself by allowing yourself the opportunities to grow, develop, and find your true sense of purpose in this life.
final aspiration: touching the sky.

conversation.

i'm insanely attracted to guys that i can hold a conversation with - not watered down - "did you watch tv today" but real conversation. i'm at times more talkative than i am observant but i guess it depends on the situation. i guess there's some sort of equilibrium with my observance and talking. whatever. i was thinking about mr. ideal and although i find it most difficult to adequately and correctly describe what i like without fumbling here and there, conversation remains in the top 5.. i actually detest describing what i like because it makes me appear shallow but hey preference is preference...to each his own, right? right...

I was thinking that I somewhat say that i prefer texting over talking but in a sense that only applies to those that don't interest me. some people are better texters than talkers and vice versa which may be somewhat sad. technology has taken over the world. remember when there was nothing but house phones? but whatever. i'm a bit tired and famished.

peace,
april.

wow, well...

where do i begin? i always fought hard to separate business and friendships. although, friendships sprout from business it's terribly hard to incorporate the two. today, i believe i lost someone over miscommunication. any hard feelings? definitely not. life goes on. i'm most passionate about my craft and i don't take it lightly. so, in the event that someone tries to come between me and my business they're put in a lose-lose situation. it won't work.

i do believe that i'm one of the most giving people but at the same time i have to learn to stop being so selfish. i know that's somewhat contradicting the previous statement. that's neither here nor there. i guess. i've talked about THIS situation so much today that it's drained me emotionally, well not directly. i guess. i doubt that the person reads my blog but in the event that he does: - i talked about you badly today, although i don't regret what happened - i apologize for a few of the words that transpired- i can come off a bit arrogant at times and i'm working on me but at the same time before you TRY manipulate people you should definitely check you. you spent so much time focusing on "me" that you neglected to see what YOU were doing. YOU used our friendship as a crutch to help you paddle on. i'm sorry but i'm not the gullibe little girls you're used to dealing with. you met your match. but such is life. game over.