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thank God it's friday!

Cherish your visions and your dreams as they are the children of your soul; the blueprints of your ultimate accomplishments. - Napolean Hill

peace and prosperity,
april nicole <3

happy monday.

if someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious as to who you will open your heart too...
demand nothing and give all.

i sincerely hope that you all have a prosperous week!

peace and prosperity,
april nicole<3

truth.

we need inventions that reveal people's true intentions: a portable pride protector, affordable lie detector.

when you mess up or discover the ugly truth, either you accept or keep it moving or get all bent out of shape and eventually accept it and keep it moving. growing up, it's been repeated that when you go looking for the truth and you receive it, you won't like it. this is true. i'm not sure what the truth is in it's entirety but i went looking for it last night and what i received in return pissed me off. in the end i believe that the only person that i can honestly be mad at is myself. no where between then and now did "we" make an effort to be a "we" - i guess i took words and ran with them. there were no actions and it's true actions speak louder than words. so, i'm calling a spade a spade and chucking the deuces and politely get my shit and walk up out of it. no love lost. i just find it baffling that the ideal of "keeping it real" is actually becoming nonexistent.

dear truth, i believe that people are afraid of you. you hold so much power but you're yet so innocent. your Siamese twin "lies" is currently basking in your ambiance because he's definitely getting all of the shine. in the end, only one of you will reign and i do believe that the truth will prevail. happy sunday people.

peace and prosperity,

april nicole <3

p.s. well, nevermind. that'll be childish. lol.

the light.mp3

some niggaz recognize the light but can't handle the glare.

lost one.

i learned something about myself today. when i like someone and things don't necessarily turn out the way i want them to - i start formulating ideas on why i don't like this person. as childish as it may be, i'm hella guilty of it. i was talking to one of my home slices and i was like, "pat I KNOW this is stupid shallow but...." right then i should've recognized that i knew better and as they say, when you know better you DO better. so i'm doing better. it took a few days...weeks to slowly take my lost and walk away. i'm not used to this rejection but it's life. you win some and you lose some. i know only the strong survive. im surviving.

peace and prosperity,

april nicole <3

do the right thing.

The reputation of a thousand years

can be determined by

one hour of conduct.

-japanese proverb.

Happy Saturday. Be Blessed!

peace and prosperity,
april nicole. <3

dear frustrations

dear frustrations,

you seem to get the best of me. just go away, please. that is all.

like me real hard,mp3

i'm not saying that you should just rush and give me your heart

i'm just asking that you like me real hard.

daily inspiration.

to be a star, you must shine your own light, follow your own path, and don't worry about the darkness, for that is when stars shine the brightest. - unknown

everybody is a star,
april nicole <3

daily inspiration.

Do more than exist; live.
Do more than touch; feel.
Do more than look, observe.
Do more than read, absorb.
Do more than hear, listen.
Do more than listen, understand.
Do more than talk; say something.

peace,
april nicole <3

welcome back

after a few days of feeling "some kind of way" i took the time to welcome back myself it may seem strange but for a days i stepped outside of myself - i took a few moments today and realized that...da heck i gotta lose? lol. soooo of courseeee "i'm back to me sooo my back is to you" beleeee that. my facebook status currently reflects my mood and it just might remain there until the end of the week or until i find some other type of fly shit to throw out there.

this is what it reads:

"april nicole is debonair and dapper; elegantly swaggered; intelligently mastered my vocabulary and over confidently staggered; my fashion is foolish almost even ignorant; with my type of diligence anything is eminent - april is that girl YOU should be chilling with."

word up.

They don't make 'em like me no more, Matter fact they never made 'em like me before.

friendship.

"with friends like these who needs enemies"

as often stated, i can probably count on one hand all of my real friends. i have about less than 4 people i consider genuine, true friends. the rest are somewhere intertwined between associates and time-taker-uppers (smirk). i consider myself someone that's genuine in all aspects of EVERYTHING - so if i do something, i'm not expecting something in return. so, i detest strongly those "friends" who feel as though, "okay i did something for you so you have to do such and such for me." that burns me up. at that point, i separate the real from the fake. blah.

hmm. perhaps?

i've always been told that we lie loudest when we lie to ourselves. i'm guilty of committing such foolishness. over the course of about 2 to 3 days (maybe more) i've convinced myself if i erased his number that whatever feelings i was developing would decrease. boy, was i wrong. not only do i think about dude 24/7; i miss him. weird, right? right... now, i'm no fan of games and gimmicks but i feel like whatever it is that i'm feeling is developing from a game we're playing with each other. "i miss you's" exchange but nothing is changing. i say that i don't want a relationship but i want more than this friendship we're acquiring. yeah, it's cool - but i want more. on the other hand, i think it's the thrill of the chase that's exciting me. who knows? i bore easily - so i'm trying to avoid any unnecessary hurt feelings. maybe my own, perhaps?

peace,
april nicole <3

it would be you.mp3

if i could have anything

i put it on everything

that it would be you you you

i just want you you you.

so, i've recently downloaded the anticipation mixtape (compliments of datpiff.com) and so far so good. it would be you is definitely a personal favorite. okay, let me stop low-key sugar coating it - i LOVE this song. i've only listened to it a trillion times and in a second it'll be a trillion and one. yzr.

peaceeeee,
april nicole <3

can't let go.mp3

there's no safer place than to be in love

and here is where i stand.

- anthony hamilton

hovito baby, no equal baby.

"you should've fell back; now you're falling"

-hov

dear...

dear mr. can i get your number...
....but i got a girl and she gets on my nerves. lmao, dudes are a trip! just leave me be, lol. i dont share.

Next thing, are females really that insecure that they get mad at their significant other for conversing with other females on a strictly friend tip? Now, I know that there are limitations to "friends" and usually guys have ulterior motives. (sorry but april dont smash the homie). i work with two guys: sir c and sir b. sir c, a 29 year old - divorced/separated father of 2; sir b, a cool guy of the Anglo Saxon background. both are cool as a fan. i've never been the one to mix business with pleasure or try to date someone i work with. too much goes into that and afterwards the relationship/friendship/work environment is tainted. so, i call a spade a spade. chris has a boo thang on the job and she thinks every girl that he smiles and speaks to wants him. chad has the spirit of the player and the personality of a charmer. sir c's boo thinks we flirt and sir b's boo (who also works at the same company) thinks we have something going on. now, pardon me i had to laugh at that.

i honestly have no genuine interest in these guys and i'm not sure what kind of signals these fee's are getting but clearly whatever it is or whatever makeshift reality they're residing it - they need to move around. i just laugh.

peace, prosperity and paper.
april. ;)

the distance.

on the 15th day of december in 2008 he wrote "distance:

i told her we probably knew each other 30 or 40 years ago before i souls

became adjusted to their new lives.

our old lives seem to line up perfectly

.there is something about the outfits she wears that catches my eye -

matches my fly.

but she's far.

there are moons between us.

i often catch the moon before she does, giving her a heads up of it's light.

i've sat in my window sill for hours hoping she'd get the right light for her art.

i reach into my pockets past the dryer lint and pull out my last few

compliments to give her.

she pays me back with pictures of beauty taken on junk piles.

one day - when the distance between us aren't so great - we will be.

we've learned to love differently.

there has to be a story of our ancestors we have yet to hear.

a story about a woman with a chalk rock creating immortal life with her heart.

a story about a man with a muse writing her into forever.

the story we have yet to hear.

we build a bridge to bring the moon closer.

and we walk.

i want to kidnap her like poets do.

there are road sides with no footprints.t

here are photographs that have not been taken and poems that have not

been written.

so we walk a few miles and meet in the middle:

26 W Adams St
Crossville, TN

they sell hot wings and lemonade.

that's the middle.

and we'll pull over on the side of the road.

i'll start telling you why the sky sometimes turns red...

and you'll take the picture.

and the distance will no longer exist.

-abj.

i miss the energy that me and friends create when we put our gifts together. i took this photo one day amid a photoshoot and me and mr. jones decided on a collab; he's def an inspiration.

deceiving.mp3

"deceiving, you are the reason that i dont believe in finding the love i need"

brrr. i believe that the ideal of keeping it real is extinct. same story, different dude. i swear, this cat/mouse chase is tiresome. it's like when i'm finally in my comfort zone...mr. wrong dressed in mr. right's clothes comes along and breed this false hope. well, this time i backed away before i got too caught up in the game... [sighs] i'm really chilling this time... single must be my bestfriend - we been rocking hard for so long. i guess you can crown me Miss Solo Dolo after this one. ha.

peace.

a rose.

November 7th a seed was sent from Heaven...
No need to weed or wet cause this seed would grow whereever...
This seed finally settled...
Cemented deep in the ghetto...
But dreamed of being special...
His dreams were so much better...
But he...
But he squeezed in with the pebbles...
Better to play along...
than to play alone...
But he knew one day they'd know...
What he knew he couldn't control..
Yea he'd bloom and his cover blown...
Yea he knew it wouldn't be long...
But this street was all he'd know...
So he'd bloom and sing it's song...
and the trees would see this Rose that grew from Stone...
Until then...
He'd just blend in...
Til his stem began to extend...
from the sun-scented cement that was both his curse and his gift...
But this seed didn't have it easy...
This seed battled to be...
What he knew he'd never achieve...
But he knew they'd never believe...
But each storm and gust of wind...
That cracked and broke his skin...
Was exactly what was meant...
To unwrap his perfect Gift...
But he stood stearn like them...
cause he'd learned to be content with the world from where they'd sit...
And he knew he'd never forget...
and he knew he'd never be them...
and they knew that he was different...
But they would still pretend...
And he loved them for that...
And loved kissed him back...
And up out that crack grew a Rose...
A Rose...
A Rose...
And up out that crack grew a Rose.
-cam.

life.

took this some time ago.

"life is but a box of chocolate; you never know what you're gonna get"

extraordinary mind.

I do not care what car you drive; where you live. If you know someone who knows someone; If your clothes are this years cutting edge; If your trust fund is unlimited; if you are a-list, b-list, or never heard of you list. I only care about the words that flutter from your mind. They are the only thing you can truly own. The only thing I will remember you by. I will not fall in love with your bones and skin. I will not fall in love with the places you have been. I will not fall in love with anything but the words that flutter from your extraordinary mind. – André Jordan.

peace and prosperity,

april nicole<3

loving me.

eyes are blind. you must look with the heart.

the things most important are invisible.

july 09.

welll, as usual i've been abandoning the blogspot. um, when more things arise i shall blog. in all actuality i have a ton of things to come and spill but when i allow myself time to write/type i'll come throw up all over these parts. until then. peaceee, prosperity and paper!!!